Struggles

I know sometimes my posts are pretty sporadic and I apologize. Daily life can seem mundane and unimportant at times – sometimes little things that bring great encouragement to us come along, but I forget we are so far away from you all and maybe our day to day is still interesting to you and a way to stay connected to our lives. So I will try to do better – the positive and the negative! But only if you promise that when there is discouragement here, don’t worry! just keep us in your prayers. Because above all we are happy, we are at peace knowing we are in the Will of God. We can say, EVERYDAY, it is well with my soul and to me that is everything. I pray you can say the same.

I have struggled a bit with what my own personal role is here. I struggle with being able to minister and create relationships with women here because of the language barrier. But God has shown me that the one or two I have around me that do speak some English, to give my all to them. We all have to start somewhere. I know my main purpose here is to take care of our home and its occupants. I help Christian plan the projects and keep all the numbers in the budget straight – which I do not like! But we really have become  team in that.

Being the best mother I can be to a 6 year old dramatic, loud, enthusiastic, energetic bundle of joy has become increasingly challenging at my age! Her personality has changed and I know it is part of maturing but I have to daily (sometimes 100 times a day) tell myself she is only 6. And she is truly a gift God has entrusted with us.

I know that to God these are important roles I have, but days I look around and feel it is not enough. It’s all about listening to His voice and letting Him bring the opportunities to us. He does. A child that Christian found because he went to help a guy. The mother just waiting for the child to die she said, had sat over him 5 days swatting flies off of his open wound. We were able to get them help – a simple and inexpensive procedure because what had happened to the boy is common here due to malnutrition and worms, but people here are convinced that they will surely die if they go to the hospital. The witch doctor had given treatments that hadn’t helped. God took Christian there, opened the door to minister to them. It’s hard to see so much suffering and hardship an d wonder where do we start. And easy to put time pressure on ourselves. It’s just one at a time, when we let God move us in His timing that we see Him move the most. And that is when we have the most peace.